Friday, May 30, 2008

God Speaks

The past week has been challenging. We are trying to get into the swing of summer, planning for a HUGE garage sale on Saturday and I am leaving town for a week on Monday. So, it has been a full week! Wednesday night I was exhausted. I was physically and emotionally drained. I had spent most of the day working on garage sale items. Tim had taken the kids out for ice cream and they came home and scurried around the garage taking in all of the items we have for sale. They went upstairs and I broke down. I was thinking about how selfish I was to ask my sweet children to sell their stuff, leave all that they know and move to another country. Really, I was thinking that I bet they wished they could be anyone else’s kids so that they did not have to deal with all of this. As I was bawling my eyes out I really felt like God was telling me to go read some of the blogs I look at daily. The first one I went to was Bethany’s. She wrote this entry that very night.
God Knew - Didn't He
When God chose to let Jesse and I raise Jessie Lyric, Journey, Bridge, Story and baby Manhattan...

He knew what He was doing.

Didn't He?

He knew our strengths, our weaknesses, our talents, our issues, our future...

He knew it all,

And He chose to let Jessie Lyric, Journey, Bridge, Story and baby Manhattan pass through life under our watch.

What a humbling honor.

What a relief.

God knew...

He knew the mistakes we would make,

the sins we would commit,

the courage we would wield,

the lives we would change,

the hearts we would break -

He chose to let Jessie Lyric, Journey, Bridge, Story and baby Manhattan experience life through our triumphs and our mistakes.

They will be stronger, they will be wiser, they will be tested-

Somehow, they will be exactly who God created them to be.

Isn't it a relief?

God's will is done through our strengths and our weaknesses.

God knew...

Can I tell you that I needed to read that so bad! I needed to be reminded that God knew and that my children will all be stronger and wiser and exactly who He made them to be.
I am constantly amazed at how He is speaking to me through this.

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1 comment:

Angie said...

OH Tina! First of all, I don't think any of the feelings that you are having are selfish. I think they are part of the journey getting you to where God needs you to be for mission work in Panama.
Secondly, I am so glad that He sent you the perfect words at just the right time to calm your fears and speak to you.
I don't know if you saw this on my blog a while back or not but it came from a daily devotion by Beth Moore. I needed to hear this on a certain day but I think it applies to all of us at some point in time.....

"We don't understand that the pressures we face getting to our places of full-throttle effectiveness in Christ are crucial for developing the muscle to sustain ministry there. He's developing the character the calling requires."

Praying for you and your precious family!

Angie